New Year, New Outlook

Ah, 2008.  So many things to look forward to this year.  In about six months, I will no longer be a college freshman (eeeeeek).  This year will bring a new president (dear God, finally!).  Spring break in Florida (it pays to have friends who live in Fla).  Moving into a dorm with a kitchenette (so I can bake all the batches of apple turnovers I want without worrying about who is in the basement).  Spice Girls concert in February (in New York mind you). 

I rang in the new year like any college freshman would.  Drinking apple cider, playing taboo, and just enjoying my friends' company.  It was so chill.  We played stupid games and rang in the new year with NBC watching a rerun of the ball dropping.  It felt so comfortable to be with good friends, felt very much like home.  Watching the ball drops always gets me thinking, what are my resolutions?

I don't remember if I had resolutions last year.  My resolutions aren't the usual "get toned" or "eat healthier."  I usually try to resolve to change something about my personality that I don't like, or change bad habits.  True change does not begin with external habits, it starts within.  If you want a new year, new you, that new you doesn't come from a smaller wasitline.  Plus, even if I didn't follow this train of thought, I'm satisfied with my weight, so there goes that resolution...

I think this year, I want to resolve to be more open with the people I'm closest to.  When it comes to my close circle, I don't like to rock the boat.  I like the boat, and plus, I'm not a great swimmer.  This causes me a lot of strife though, and my friends too, because I vent to them about the things in my life that upset me but if someone upsets me, I never let them know.  I don't want them to be mad at me, but I can't let myself continue to let frustration boil over. 

I keep my feelings bottled up for other things too.  If I'm too stressed out, I don't like to let people know, I try to put on this "I can handle it" routine.  If I like a guy, I can never tell him, oh geeeeeez, I could probably jump out of a plane easier than I could tell a guy I liked him.  I even keep my feelings in when it comes to good feelings.  I don't always tell the people I love that I love them.

So, that's my new year's resolution.  I want to be more open with people in my life, whether it be expressing anger, like, love, etc.  I want to know where I stand with people and let them know where they stand with me.  It would make life so easier, at least I hope so. 

Happy New Year everyone!

Oh, and someone asked about my grades.  I don't want to sit here and list specific grades for each class, but I'll just say that I maintained a gpa that I am proud of.